complications

Should I be happy or should I be sad?
Should I be worried or should I be contented?

I never knew army life can screw up human relation so bad. I thought it would just be a test of endurance, patience and affection, but reality tells me otherwise.

What can I do to salvage this gap that I feel between us? Am I thinking far too much? Am I being too sensitive as she always say I am? Not just her, but it seems like quite a number of people have mentioned that to me. Is it just me or is it really happening?

These thoughts, are very worrying. I don't feel secure with all these thoughts lingering in my mind.

I just want to faster POP and get out of there. At least I can get to go back home everyday, able to get back alittle freedom. Away from the stringent and systematic army life.

7 more weeks. It may look like a small figure, but it's a long way to me. I want to salvage and get things done, double time.

Another words, I just want to be with her. Share her ups and downs. Share her everything. We seems to lost the magic we had, 7 years ago. I found it back before it enlist. And now, everything's back to square one. I have to double my effort, or maybe even quadraple?

I'm just not doing enough for her..

Sucky Feeling

Pardon the absence! Well, probably not going to update next week either. I think I've got a confinement coming up right after my field camp.

Well, the upcoming week is field camp. It's going to suck so bad. I spent a night in UO and the back of my knee are getting rashes due to not wearing a washed pair of trousers. I can't imagine spending 5 days out in the wild. I heard field camp is equivalent to fuck camp where you will get fucked by your superiors for anything reason you think is possible. Any reasons you can think of, you will get fucked by your superiors. And seriously, I'm not looking forward to it. On top of all sucky'ness', we have to camo on for 5 full days. Which suck, totally.

Suck on top of suck? I'm not fully prepared for my field camp. My ground sheet hasn't been tied with my tent pegs yet. Some of my packs are not full and worse still, the fucking powder leaked and one of my pack is actually filled with powder. What a great way to start my field camp.

Conclusion, I'm not looking forward to this field camp.

Next entry's probably going to take a long time to fall through due to my confinement, but I think there will pictures to entertain you guys, since I'm going to Liting's Birthday party right about.. now? Got to go prepare already.

Wee wa wa wee wa!

Now, events have took place while I was out on an island where the boys will march wherever they go and the girls, well, are hard to locate.

I believe the most notorious news while I was away is the death of MJ. I'm rather late on this one.

Well, growing up. I had alot of "encounters" with MJ. My eldest brother is a MJ fan and he used to buy MJ's cds to listen and live performances vcds to watch. Well, occasionally, I took them out too. I still can remember that I was the one who bought the album, 'Blood on the dance floor'.

Famous for his groin touching, sensual high-pitched voice and moonwalk, MJ captivated the people and self proclaim himself, 'King of Pop'.

My mum shrieked at me when I came back from camp. Informing me about the death of MJ. She thought it's so sayang for such a talented man to pass away. By then, I knew, my mum was actually also a fan of MJ. Took me quite awhile to figure that out.

A pity that a man of talent passed away. I liked his music, but I'm all over it. I'm done with it.

R.I.P Micheal Joseph Jackson.


For months, I've missed quite a couple of shows on the big screen. Mainly, Angels and Demons. I'm waiting for the vcd to be released. Sometime soon I hope.

Yesterday, I went to catch...



I'm very impressed by the CG, but the story plot was rather confusing I would say. And there seems to be alot of transformers that I've never seen before. SPOILER ALERT! But overall, I enjoyed the show. Well worth the 10bucks I paid.

And yeah, Jerry made sense. There's no Wee wa wa wee wa sound effect, it's the just sound of the moving parts of the transformers.

URGH!! Time to prepare for book in again. I'm damn sad by some possible future happenings around me.

title'less'

The bad thing about you updating your blog while you are in NS is that it contains full of words. No pictures involved. I'll keep this short, going to catch a movie before heading over to Jerry's place for his birthday. I hope by then, I'll at least have some pictures to 'brighten up' my blog.

Booking out feels awesome.