Late, with regrets

As much as this is an unearthly time to blog, but here i am typing away.

I don't know if joy describes what's going on this few days. I'm glad somethings happen, but at the same time some things are just in place to either piss me off, or just to kill my brain cells for thinking far too much stuff.

I've been doing a lot of self reflection these few days. Probably cause I've not much stuff on hand. That's a nicer way of putting it. Ever since the day I posted on Facebook and Twitter :'Suddenly, it feels like going to USA is a wrong choice afterall. Sigh'. It got me thinking. Really.

This opportunity is definitely hard to come by. And everyone's commenting that I made the right choice. 'It will be a once in a lifetime experience," they say.

It's easy if you say that. But away for a whole year? Let's see you make that statement again. But this time round, you are in my shoes.

Frankly speaking, if i were to leave Singapore right there and then, I would think I made the right choice. But really sad to say, that WAS the case.
Much stuff have taken place since the day I send out the email to the ASA guy till today where I'm a confirmed candidate to fly over there. I just don't feel how it used to be anymore.

Much to my dismay, I'm flying over. Contradicting it may sounds with regards to this entry, but I'm still looking forward to the trip. But, with much worries.

As much as you have seen in dramas, where they keep saying about people dying with regrets in their life. I'm kind of going through what it's like, lest the dying part.

I'm turning in very soon. I've got a course to attend tomorrow.

Poof!

Finally an update!

Gotten a new laptop after such a long hiatus. It’s been long! I’ve POPed from Tekong since 16th September and have also completed my Company Quarter Master Sergeant (CQMS) course which ends in early December.

Been through loads of shit in my unit. That’s all I can sum up for my life in my unit.

As many of you may know, I’m leaving Singapore for a year due to overseas detachment in USA. Resetting up this blog to keep you guys updated from now on as I think that’s the only channel apart from Facebook that’s going to let you know that I’m still alive and kicking out there in some other parts of the world.

Worries is the first thing that I wish to keep at bay at this crucial time. But I guess life’s not smooth sailing at all. Even though I’ve been longing to go USA and am looking forward to this trip, shit happens. It’s going to be a long hard road.

Human is just weak now don’t you think? We long for something, but once we get it, we still either yearn for more, or we complain.

Now imagine-:

You are all so perfect. You got the most flawless face that mosquito just slides down your face. You got the biggest and most beautiful eyes that you have to wear a sunglasses to stop attracting the opposite sex.
The biggest problem?

*When you are hungry, you pick up the phone and call your mum*

You : “Ma. Buy me lunch, I want big big one. Very hungry.”

*After lunch*

You : “FWAHH! I’m so full. Ma, why you buy so much?”

This is what we say in Hokkien, ‘yiao ba cha’. You hungry also complain, full also complain.
I think you got the message. People are just weak. And never satisfied.